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From: Dave Death Category: Art Date: 18 December 2006 Time: 05:05 AM Review: A friend of my housemate's friend's friend was having a party. How could I miss it? I wish I had stayed at home. My hope had been the randomness of it made it likely I would be stepping into an impossibly cool and exciting world; that because I was taking a little risk in going there, fate would reward me with an impossibly good party. But no: it was rubbish. My housemate, his friend and I arrived at 1am. I left a long time later at 2.30am. There was an unashamedly fat girl in an outsize party dress stomping around - a hippopotamus attacked by hornets - and lots of interchangeable bald-headed men. A middle-aged woman with tattoos. A self-loathing snob, I spoke to nobody. I will not waste my easy wit and conversation here; nobody here is of interest to me. These are not people. Tortilla crisps in a bowl, cheddar and a little bread. Mulled wine, cheap hock, cola. I didn't have a drink - why would I? I don't belong here. I Wanna be Adored played too quietly through a cheap hi-fi, cutting out when someone tripped on a cable. Retro music, much of it junk, selected through an iPod by the one pretty girl there, a Zadie Smith lookalike. I knew every song played, knew and disliked or, if I liked, found myself transported into melancholy, remembering the associations of hearing the music in happier times. I pined for absent friends and unrequited loves. Ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with? Yes, I thought, as I sat alone on the sofa smoking another cigarette wondering how I would get home. I wish I was with her; I miss her; I love her. Get me away from here I'm dying.